This is a post that I hope will help at least someone out there with their self confidence! On November 9th of 2016, I went public about a huge milestone I reached in my life on Instagram. This was my post:
''Okay I gotta get deep for a few moments. What you see in this picture is 14 year old me aka freshman me (bottom) and 18 year old me aka senior me (top obvi). I know what you are thinking, holy shit. She changed a shit ton. Yes, I did. But I wouldn't want it to be any other way. The person on the bottom was never me. That was the person society wanted me to be. Back then I wanted to be like every other girl my age..... Straight hair everyday with my bangs in a poof, jeans everyday, dressy shirts everyday, ugg boots.... I always thought I had to look a certain way every single day to fit in and make friends. Deep down I've always known that I am different. Back then I refused to accept it though because I thought different was ugly. I was very unhappy and confused to say the least and then I had no idea why. In fact, since I was 10 I have had to deal with a lot of severe personal struggles. Being insecure and hating myself was a huge one up until I was 17, and even then I was still feeling not completely whole with myself but I was getting there. There's much much more than just confusion and insecurity I was struggling with but I won't get into that. Bottom line is, the bottom picture never has been and never will be who I am. The woman on the top is who I am. I was so afraid of being anything but the bottom picture for many years. But up until the middle of my junior year of high school I realized who I was and that I didn't give a fuck anymore about what society wanted me to be. I love who I am now, and it was the complete opposite for sooo many years. I just want everyone to know that different is so beyond beautiful and nothing but that. I want to encourage people to be themselves always because you'll be so happy when you find out who you are and be that person you were meant to be. Recently I have been so happy because this milestone I've reached in my life is huge. Be yourself. If no one likes that fuck them, they aren't worth a second of your time. I also wanna thank everyone who's stuck by me through thick and thin. There are very few who have stuck by me from the very beginning but they still mean the world to me. Find yourself and love yourself.❤''
Life is so hard. It's a fact. But it's even harder when you aren't happy with yourself. Honestly a huge lesson I've learned so far in life is that you will never be happy if you convince yourself you aren't who you actually are. Ever since I let the real me out I have been much happier in a lot of ways. My lesson to you is to never let anyone or anything make you into something you aren't. Society is dumb as hell. I learned to just be myself through it all and it's a great thing. Don't be afraid to be you! I was for a lot of my life and now I'm in a much better place in some aspects!
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